Its Spring Break, Hurray! Normally I would be sitting here thinking about all the foot i was going to do and the ass groove i was going to work on on the couch. Over the last month I have slowly been on a mission to get out of my lazy funk and I really have been enjoying WANTING to move more. I always found it very difficult to self motivate when working out. Growing up I had various stages of my fitness. I was always a tom boy, getting rough with the boys on my road, playing football (soccer) as i was the only girl on the street. My mam and dad always telling me to get in with them and i always gave it a good go. I was always quite a chubby kid though, i loved my grub and my god could i put it away, clearly nothing has changed besides my metabolism.
as i got to about 10 other girls in my class where talking about joining a gaelic football team at the school i had no idea what it was or how to play but all the other girls where doing it and i didnt want to be left out. it was from there that i fell in love with it. I played GAA for years. I got to play for Dublin for a few years until slowly the love became boredom so I started camogie at 16 and again fell in love with that. My nanny had played for her town in thomastown, kilkenny and it always intrigued me. I was a very late starter to camogie considering they like you to start younger to get more fluid with the hurl but if you have the nack you can learn. within 2 years i was on the Dublin team for that and for many years after also and i made it to Senior level. I got to travel around Ireland playing different teams and I miss It and my team mates alot now i live in florida.
You cannot compare to having a team behind you. the support and drive a team has to push and motivate each other is the best feeling ever. The friendship and bond is something lasting and i miss it. for that reason exactly is why i have such a hard time motivating myself. someone also (like me) who suffer from depression has a really hard time pushing themselves when their mind is constantly telling them that they are no good and cant do, nor should you even find a point to try. I am over feeling like that. which is why im so proud of my self to be out and actually walking and enjoying it. Im trying to tell myself, what else do you have to do? I try to make an excuse or a reason not to and i just say that question over and over in my head until i get out and go. and you know what? I feel great after it. I know that can only go so far though and so I signed up for Kickboxing today. I have NEVER done kickboxing but it has always been something i said i would love to try. It is meant to be amazing for toning and fitness and thats what i need. I also like that there will be someone yelling at me to do things and not just me in a gym wandering around aimlessly like a head less chicken.
When i joined crunch fitness thats exactly what happened. I had such high expectations. You know, I was going to be this Gym addict who showed up looking the shit in my yoga pantaloons, water bottle, fitbit watch ready and using all the machines and weights in there and then i would look hot as hell with an arse you would envy. In reality it was me slobbingly going in, finding a treadmill doing 15mins then going down to the machines haivng no idea what to do, how to use them finding one leg press machine doing that and leaving. I took a class once in there and found the instructor so unhelpful and nobody wanted to show me how to do anyting despite it being advertised as for all levels. I worked in a gym, and the running of it was terrible compared to how we did it back home. I would assume the instructor to always introduce themselves and ask for any new faces tell them where the equipment was that you needed and then to help out or offer some encouragement through the class but nope. after that i never did a class in there again and shortly after i stopped going . when i started there i was assigned with a trainer and i assumed she would set me up with a small routine like we do back home and that was a no go either. she asked me my goals etc told me what she could do for me, and then hit me with the prices. No thank you. back home you are sat down, asked your goals etc, showed around the gym and then given a basic gym routine and then if you would like extra help if your not hitting your target etc you have the option to hire someone or PT. They also gave me the option here, i didn’t have to hire her but they also didnt set me up so i had to figure it all out alone or pay for her which sucked.
Any who, im all signed up for I love kickboxing and waiting to hear from them to arrange my first class so i will report back about how i got on. i am excited to start something new and if i like it i will sign up for some more classes. I am really wanting to get my family fit and healthy and want to sign jaxon up for something too. i do not want him to be one of those kids on video games all day. its no problem to play them but not too much. there has to be a balance. Active lifestyle thats what we want. Diet is the next thing i need to work on but so far so good. I am trying to find something that works for me and thats going to take some time but i am making smarter choices which helps for now. I hope you all enjoy your spring break and make wonderful memories with your families and friends on this time off.
K xox
The Duffy’s diary 